Hormones

I am finally not so tired but I am sick of being hormonal. I am dreading having another girl, honestly I have no hope of a boy. It would be nice for Flyboy to have a son, but he is so bonded to his girls I really don't think it would matter. Monkey is already a mini-me so I know that I am looking at teenage hell, I wasn't a 'bad' kid but I was very Katie Kaboom. I would throw fits and cry for no reason, then 10 min later I was fine. I hated myself then and I am dreading watching my girls go through that part of their lives.
Well this vent is about last night. Flyboy called like 3 times yesterday and I missed his call every time. So when I got back from Supermoms (we went there for Empanada's YUM!!) and got all the girls in bed I gave him a quick call. I started to bitch about Comcast (we have had nothing but issues with them and are both pissed that we cannot get Directv here because of some big ass pines in the backyard). Well he semi cuts me off and goes I am at Mary's (WTF) and I will call ya in about a 1/2 hour or so when I leave. The green eyed hormonal bitch comes out and says fine whatever don't worry about it don't even bother calling me back.
So I go downstairs to call comcast and ask why I don't have a picture for the 3rd time this week! When I am done I cannot help it and call Flyboy. As soon as he answers I get snippy and ask so ya leaving yet? He said yes I was walking out the door. So he asks were you getting pissy with me. Oh I cannot believe he is asking me this. Yes I have known Mary for almost a year now she has been over the house on numerous occasions for study groups. But right now I feel fat and unattractive and lonely (he has been gone like 3 days and I have lost 9 lbs that I really didn't need to lose, I hate hormones!!) So I tell him this and he tells me I have no reason to be pissy hello 14 weeks pregoo with your child here, damn asshole! I trust Erik completely and I am usually not like this so it is strange for me. I am a jealous person but usually I am not a bitch about it. Grrr...
If it is not one thing is it another! I have finally sleep 3 full nights in a row and my appetite is picking back up and my energy level is coming back up. I raked the whole backyard and tidied the house which is a feat I haven't been able to do in weeks. It could be because my parents come today and I am trying to make order of my chaos! I am just happy to be feeling better just not liking the person I am being to Flyboy, the guy is going to be sleeping in the snow in Maine starting tomorrow and will be out there for a full week, but I am sorry he doesn't need to be hanging out with some single girl. At least he did say that Mary said she would've been pissy too if her hubby (not that she has one) told her he was hanging out with some girl, so I at least felt a little better about my green eyed feelings. I still hate being hormonal and am dreading the effects of 5 women in one house, I remember growing up and having 4 women!