As Promised

Here is the longer update. So Apple Juice ended up running a fever of 104 for almost 6 days it finally broke December 22, so we cancelled going up to GA like the original plan. We went to Supermoms on Christmas Eve it is her oldest daughter's birthday on xmas, a true xmas miracle born 6 years ago at 28 weeks! So we celebrated a birthday and enjoyed a dinner of ham. We woke up xmas day and the kids opened their presents, even Chubs got into it it was pretty cute. We then packed the van and headed down to Ft Myers to hang out with my aunt, uncle, grandma and uncles stepmom. My uncle's stepmom didn't realize Apple Juice was a girl and bought her a car, but she was excited about it anyway she is so funny she loves her girly stuff and her cars and planes!! We hung out there for a few days then we left the dogs with my aunt and headed a little further south to see Flyboys aunt who 'winters' down there. We headed to the beach while we were with his aunt! We had tons of fun just hanging out and picking oranges from their trees. We then headed back to my aunts and took her to Busch Gardens as a way of saying thank you for putting up with my dogs (aka horses!). We had a blast there and the firework show was awesome. Then New Years Eve we headed back home tired and definitely vacationed out!! New Years day was awesome the kids woke up and it was xmas all over since they didn't get to play with their presents since we left right away. We spent the day taking down Christmas decorations and talking to family and friends we hadn't talk to on Christmas Day.

So now my whole family knows and we told the girls today. I am 10w5d pregnant. This was so far from planned I have been journaling my feelings instead of blogging them. I have had 4 ultrasounds so far and today I saw the baby kicking and moving all over the place so it looks like I should be past the scary miscarriage phase. It doesn't seem real, Flyboy will be gone on deployment so I will be alone which was my fear when we were trying for Chubs. Not to mention a July baby in Florida doesn't sound like fun. It is all Flyboy's fault for being so wishy-washy on whether he was done. We were careful, but I was careful the night we conceived Apple Juice so I guess God has other plans for me. Monkey is ecstatic and hoping for a boy Apple Juice said we could name the baby Rose, but then asked if she could go to Kathy's (my best friend in San Diego). I guess that is her way of saying she thinks the family was big enough and she is moving out!! I am so torn about this pregnancy that I wasn't sure what I wanted to miscarry or go to term because both options sucked, now that I am going to term I just want the baby to be healthy. I don't think I could deal with a sick newborn and three kids while my husband is gone for 6 months. If I have to I will, I know I can! I am very sad that Flyboy won't meet the baby until the baby is 4-5 months old, but it is a what can I do thing!
I am hardly producing milk but Chubs is not ready to give it up yet I don't think I am yet either. I don't think I want to tandem nurse so I will wean her soon. I guess I got 7+ months to figure everything out!