One long bichy weekend

I usually get pretty bitchy just before Flyboy leaves, but man doubled with pregnancy hormones and not getting adequate sleep I am megabitch. I am better now, we had the predeployment brief on Monday night and I got to meet the ombudsman and a few other wives who will deliver before the guys get home, those babies are their firsts that would really suck.
Then yesterday I went to the ultrasound school and my little man was not shy at all, he wouldn't let us get a good pic of his face but we got many glimcises of his goods! Flyboy still says he couldn't see it but I did. I guess now I have to wash and put away all those boy clothes. It still seems so foreign and I am excited but I still would have been excited if they told me it was another girl. The girls were both there and excited to get to see him. His leg measured 32 weeks and his head 28 weeks but they said they are normally within 2 weeks, so everything looked great. After the ultrasound we headed to St Augustine and went to the beach we all had fun and got a little burnt.
Today my sis heads back to Michigan and that is sad since I probably won't see her for a year. :(

30 weeks and 1 day

and I am huge. I swear this is how big I was 2 weeks before I had Chubs, that is scary. I have actually outgrown a few of my maternity shirts, granted they are xs but still. The baby is laying weird and it actually hurts most of the time. The baby is also non-stop active from 6pm until like 2am and that is so not cool. I am not a night person, hopefully the schedule will flip after the baby is here. Oh well.
Off to being sad that I only have 3 weekends left to enjoy Flyboy...

Who needs sleep?

Me, me... Actually I need to be sleeping right now but my heartburn for the first time is so bad I cannot lay down I have taken a zantac and about 4 tums and I still can tell if I lay down I will not be able to rest. So there that explains my 2am post...
We made the drive to Michigan it wasn't so bad going up we made it to Atlanta in 5.75 hours which is awesome time and we left late because I ran late at my doc appointment which went awesome and the doc is going to do the procedure at my 6 week checkup. I have to plan on being there from about 8am until 3 or so but Supermom already said she would take the kiddoes and pick the big ones up from school and then take me home since they recommend you have a ride home in case the local gives me grief. I am not to too worried since my friend who had it done said it wasn't bad. My mom and her friend were wondering why I would do that instead of a tubual, hello no surgery if it isn't needed. If the placements don't work which does happen 2 out of 9 times then Flyboy will get the snip, honestly he said he would get it if I don't want this procedure done but I am all for the non-surgical sterilization. So there's that now the vacation...
We stayed in Atlanta until 11pm on Saturday and drove all thru the night. Flyboy took a nap on Sat afternoon so he drove until about 3am then I took over and drove until 6am when we finally had to stop for gas (we made it from Atlanta to Cleveland, OH). Then the girls woke up around 8am and we stopped for some breakfast and pulled into my mom's at 1030am. It was really nice driving thru the night. Then Flyboy and I took a nap and headed over to his best friends mom's house since his sister had her first communion and was having a party. It was nice seeing his whole family he is the oldest of 7 children and the last five are Monkeys age and younger so the girls had fun with all the kids there. Then we went back to my mom's and 2 of my brothers came over.
Monday we went to my little sisters to go to the seamstress so I could do the last fitting of my dress, it fit okay but my boobs had grown a little so it was a little tight up there but nothing horrible. Then we headed to Flyboy's moms house for dinner and to visit.
Tuesday Flyboy went with my bro-K (who is now living with me) and worked on my grandma's old house that my bro-D is fixing to sell. I went and hung out with my SIL and nieces. It was really nice to see my bro-M, who is divorcing my SIL, and my SIL being so civil with each other they live on the same street about 1 mile apart and get along great for my nieces sake it was funny at the wedding because they sat by each other and talked and no one could believe it.
Wednesday Flyboy went to his mom's house and did some work around there with his little bro. I took my niece up to my sisters house to take her to the seamstress for her final fitting then we met up at PF Changs to celebrate my mom's 60th bday. We had so much fun my parents good friends came and then my little sis, my now BIL, Flyboy's bro, Bro-K, Flyboy, my 2 nieces, my 3 girls and me. There was so much food. My mom seemed to really enjoy herself.
Thursday we went to my friend Kare-bears house. We had a really nice visit and some really good fajias. The girls were bored so headed to the mall for about an hour just so they didn't destroy her house completely!
Friday we got my mom's house ready for the rehearsal dinner than headed out so the girls and I could get our nails done. AJ was so funny because she didn't want to take a shower afterwards because she was afraid it would wash off. After that we headed to Stiebeys house to visit for about an hour before heading back to my mom's for the rehearsal. It was the most unorganized crazy rehearsal I have ever been to but it finally worked out in the end. Then we went to mom's for pizza and salad. My sis got me pj's, a necklace and a really nice picture frame. My sis headed to the hotel and took Monkey I was on the fence if I wanted to go but decided to hang back and it was a good thing I was asleep at 930!
Saturday THE BIG DAY. AJ and I headed over to the hair salon to meet up with everyone. Monkey's hair was already cut and almost done when I got there I was amazed it looked so nice. My sis got exactly what she wanted and we all loved it. I got an updo for the first time in my life and the hair dresser must have put about a whole can of hairspray to get all my curls to stay. I also had about 100 bobby pins in my head. I was super impressed and for Monkey, AJ and I with tip it was only $70. AJ just got double french braids and the hair dresser did her and the other little flower girls hair for free. After that I dropped Monkey off at my moms and grabbed lunch for everyone at the church. We all got dressed and did the picture thing. The ceremony was beautiful my BIL was crying during his vows and so were all the bridesmaids and me until the best man gave me a funny look and I started snickering, I felt horrible at least I am all big and pregnant so it was a little more excusable!! The reception was nice even with the crashers, seriously about 10-15 people just kinda showed up that they didn't invite. One of them being one of the groomsmen's brother that I kinda used to date back in high school. Oh it was funny making Flyboy jealous when I hugged him. He is hot though I will say that! We left Chubs with Flyboys mom so it was really nice actually eating a meal without her and being able to visit without constantly trying to chase her. The reception started at 530 and was pretty dead by 11 when Flyboy and I left everyone seemed to have a really nice time.
Sunday we took Flyboy's mom out for breakfast after church and then visited with her for a little bit before heading back to my parents. Bro-K was still trying to get the truck running right and finally about 6pm decided it wasn't going to happen so my dad started calling around to find a cargo carrier for the roof of the van. Flyboy cooked us some good burgers and then I headed to bed with 3 drivers we decided driving thru the night again was a good idea. So Flyboy and bro-K went and bought the carrier and loaded up the van with as much as they could. Bro-K has a bunch of stuff that he would eventually like to get down here, but now we are just trying to get him a job. The drive down sucked since the boys couldn't sleep so of the almost 14 hours it took to get down I drove about 9. Chubs cried a lot during the trip, Monkey kept complaining and AJ was throwing up I was so done. It was pretty funny going thru Tennessee there was something that smelt like cabbage and we were all joking about the smell and AJ out of no where says oh that is probably me I puked. I really think she is allergic to nuts because that is all she threw up was the undigested nuts and then the hashbrowns she ate about 5 min after throwing up! By the time we pulled in around lunchtime on Monday my feet looked like Sheks. Flyboy crawled right into bed and bro-K passed out on the couch so I got the kids settled. Flyboy's grandma helped but wasn't feeling well so I felt bad passing the kiddoes off. I did finally get them settled with a movie and Chubs with some toys and food and watched Brokeback mountain. It was a good movie to zone to not sure how much of it I actually caught though Grandma turned purple when she saw what I was watching. She told me it was her movie and she watched it but not with Flyboy's dad (they live together)! I tried not to laugh but she was just so embrassed it was cute.
Tuesday we all finally got enough sleep and drove home we somehow missed the exit for Fudruckers so I was a little sad we settled on Chick-fil-A oh well. Then when we pulled up my neighbors daughter was coming over to let the dogs out. She is 15 and was a little short with us and just quickly said well my mom will come talk to ya'll later. I thought it was a little weird but just finished getting the kids and essentials out of the car. Well I opened the gate to let the dogs in the yard and they ran up to the cat and I realized the cat was dead. I called Flyboy and my brother out to take care of it so I could get Chubs changed and tell the big girls. Monkey and AJ cried, I felt like a butt because I really didn't like the cat but to see him dead was very sad. There was blood in Chubs bed and some on the carpet. It looked like his leg was all tore up, but we are not positive was happened. My neighbor was crying and offering to get us a new kitty and I felt so bad that she felt that way. She hadn't seen him in 2 days and last time she saw him he jumped up on the counter to eat and was walking around fine. She never went upstairs so she didn't see the blood. Flyboy and I guess that another animal got to him and he ended up with an infection, but who's to say he wouldn't have done the same thing with us here. I am just glad he made it to his own yard and died here so I wasn't wondering whatever happened to him. AJ wants another kitty but I told her not until Flyboy gets back. Maybe come xmas I will be ready I just personally don't like cats and am fine with just dogs!
Now I am off to bed it is 3am and all the antacid seemed to have worked. Tomorrow I have to take the van to get the oil changed and the carpets steam cleaned. Then just get laundry done and normal household stuff oh get food since the fridge is empty. Flyboy at least doesn't have to check back in until Thursday so I will have both him and bro-K to help with stuff and watch kids so I can get errands done.
Oh my goodness this is really, really long and full no wonder I feel like I was run over by a mac truck!

I am over being hormonal...

I usually could care less what people around me say or do. I really only look for approval from my family (that is my husband and kids and little sis). I try and do right by them because people move, grow apart and life goes on but these are the people who have been there and will be there forever. I love my husband and the fact that I have known him almost half my life. I love that my sister and I only got closer when I moved 2000 miles away and now we have a wonderful relationship. And my kiddoes drive me crazy some days but honestly I wouldn't have it any other way.
Right now I keep finding myself getting effected by what other people say and it bothers me because I am not that kind of person. Honestly I didn't want a shower I told my friend who is throwing me one that I felt weird about having a shower for a forth baby especially when I still have a baby in the house. There isn't anything I really need per say, I have all my cloth diapers still I was getting ready to sell them right before I got that positive. And I was still slowly getting rid of my infant seat and so on but just hadn't yet. I also just don't enjoy being the center of attention, I guess being towards the end of such a big family I have gotten used to not being that. I have always shared my bday party with my brother who's bday is 12 days after mine and he is 11 years older. Not that it was much of a party it was usually a watermelon cut in half with candles in it. We couldn't afford a store bought cake and it was too hot to turn on the oven. I got a gift from my parents on my 12 and 16 bday and my 16 bday I was 8 months preggo and gift was a bday party that was just for me. I like parties and going to them but I dunno I just don't like being the guest of honor.
So when my friend called me and said that the idea was thrown out to have the shower for three ladies I was like fine. At the time I was in L&D and waiting for test results to come back and not really in a decision making position. I didn't really think about it. As time went on I started to get upset that it was done and said without anyone else contacting me. The other 2 ladies who the shower is for never called or even emailed (I kinda expected a thanx or thats cool we will have a joint shower, especially since the person who was orginally throwing it was doing it for me more as a thanx for all the help I have given her and her last hoorah before moving) and the orginal people who threw out the idea never asked me what I really thought it was kinda decided without me. I just felt bad for Supermom since she doesn't know the other 2 ladies and I don't want her to feel weird about coming and not bringing gifts. I also feel weird about bringing gifts to my own shower, if that makes sense. But then I looked at the evite and one of the other ladies friends said I would love to come and celebrate her baby like the other 2 babies don't matter. I know this lady doesn't know me and I don't even know why the comment bothered me but it just made me think about how the whole party thing was started and that bothered me. I know it is 95% hormones and the rest is just the other stress I have going on but I am just feeling done and like I would rather go back to not having a shower at all.
I am just done with it and right now I know I need to be focusing on my sister and her wedding. I have a long drive ahead of me and I need to destress since I cannot afford to get sick. Right now I just feel done, done with everything.