God get me through today...

So Erik comes home tonight. So I started my day at 3am since Matthew has decided that 3 until about 530am is a GREAT playtime! Then I just vegged on the couch until 630am. Got Ju-Ju and Mikaela's lunches made. Finally get the big girls outa bed. Everyone is just about ready to go and I cannot find my van key. I call Kevin to make sure he doesn't have it. Finally make the call of just taking the coolmaro. So I was a horrible mom and AJ wasn't buckled, Ju-Ju not in a carseat and Matthew facing forward. I felt awful. Got everyone to school came home looked everywhere and even dug through the NASTY trash. Come back in and it is on the floor in the garage. GRRRRR... Now I have about 30 more min that Matthew will be napping so I need to clean the carpet on my stairs at least Ju-Ju is at school for a little while. I am just in Bitch mode these past few days. I swear I hate being this way. I think my kids think I love it, oh well. At least I have my van key back so I can get a few erronds done today and not have to be an awful mother all day.