Rainbow Promises: Let's see if this one works!!

08 November 2005

At 8:47 PM, water said...: Still not working here it is:
So just an update on me. My baby will be 1 on Friday I cannot get over less than a year ago I was still pregnant. It makes me really sad because she is our last, at least our planned last!! Flyboy is supposed to get neutered the beginning of next year we will see, if not I am going to make an appointment. He is wishywashy where as I am DONE!! I think the whole aren't you guys going to try for a boy is getting to him. Even if we got pregnant again I would want another girl, just for a sense of normalcy for us!! I would love a boy, but I just don't want to try for another one. I loved my pregnancy and I am sad to lose my baby, but I am done with this whole stage of temper tantrums and frustrations on both end from lack of communication.

I want a life I have spent the last ten years having a life and taking care of babies and going to school. I want to finish school and have a career. I also never ever want to suffer another miscarriage again, I hate the emotional ups and downs and the sense of being a failure that I have gotten after each of my miscarriages.
Okay that was deep, sorry.

I have had an okay couple of days. I am not going to be working evenings ever again!! I am working weekends and Flyboy is getting pretty sick of taking the kiddos to bday parties, but he had another one this weekend!! :) Oh well paybacks for 6 months of doing EVERYTHING by myself!! Off for some Mommy and Daddy TV time!!