Mommy blues

So I had a rough weekend I am sleeping alright, but just plan bitchy I wish there was someway to say that nicer but no I have been down right mean lately. I have been avoiding friends and my family. Poor Flyboy I am sure he is ready to leave me in the middle of the St Johns on a boat with no oars, but hey I told him that I was going to get preggo and he needed to let me get fixed if he wasn't going to!! Oh well 4 kids, most likely 4 girls oh lord help me!! I will survive my parents make it thru 8. The mood finally snapped yesterday so now I just feel horrible for the person I was for 4 days, but I know there is nothing I can do to change that. So I just spent time with my kids yesterday took them to the park and had them help me with dinner and we even cleaned the girls rooms all of this with no fighting and me not getting frustrated it was a wonderful feeling when I crawled into bed! Flyboy even put the back room together so I actually was able to put everything away!!
Then today has been great for me, but my poor kids. Chubs took a couple of good falls at the park this morning because I woke her from her nap to go play with a bunch of babies (seriously I got the mean look about a million times everytime I smiled at one of the babies!!) Then we went and got Apple Juice from school, she ran in the door to go check on her catapiller she caught yesterday and it was dead. So she was a little bummed and went upstairs to play polly now that you can see the floor in there!! Well a bird flew in the house so I asked her to come help me chase it out of the house. I was finishing up lunch for Chubs and I and the bird flew into the half bath and the 2 dogs and cat cornered it and Phantom caught it and killed it. So I look out the back window to see Apple Juice holding a dead bird and looking so lost. So I go ouside and help her bury it. Then she tells me how some boy put Jesus on two sticks in a cross and Jesus died but didn't stay that way (she must have learned this in chapel at pre-school!). So I have to tell her that the bird is in heaven and he will stay there with all of his birdie friends. Then she looks at me and says well I just feel sorry for the bird. I tell her it is okay but we cannot be mad at Phantom because he didn't know what he was doing.
So tonight I am going to take her for ice cream! What a horrible day for a 4 year old! Hopefully Monkey is having a good day at school, but seeing as she had trouble getting to sleep and waking up I am not thinking that it is very likely.