Worst mommy award...

Goes right here! Man I am done with Monkey I actually got a call from her teacher yesterday about how horrible she has been. The teacher did say that she is not the only kid and it is the impending summer, but still I was so embrassed. I have had nothing but issues with her at home I just figured she was excited about trip, scared about her Dad leaving and happy about the baby. I know I am in a weird place emotionally right now, I just figured everything was okay since our last session with Ira this past week was awesome and Monkey really talked about what was going on. I dunno what I am going to do with her. Love her and be here for her, but right now I want to hang her by her toenails.
Than AJ is being so whiny and clingy it is driving me insane. She has a cough which has been keeping her up a little at night so I have given her cough syrup but she still is just so not AJ. Yesterday she did have me laughing, I was making German potato salad and when I told her this she said Eww I hate Germans! Flyboy and I had a good laugh about that.
Chubs is good but I caught Monkey in her crib twice this week sleeping with her. Now this crib I got from a friend in San Diego and Chubs is the fourth child to use it not to mention it has done 2 cross country moves so it is on it's last leg and the one side that moves is getting a little lose. Well Monkey almost broke it climbing out one morning, so I decided to just take it off and let Chubs use the crib as a toddler bed. I am hoping to use this crib thru the next baby. Well Chubs was super excited she loved that she could get in and out of her bed, she went to sleep without any complaints yesterday. So around 11:30 she fell out of the crib and so Flyboy put her in the full sized bed in her room (now this bed is about twice as high off the ground as the crib, about to my mid-thigh). I dunno why he did this at 5am she fell off that bed in between the wall and the bed and somehow cut up her face pretty good. It is a good thing I just planned on packing and getting the house ready for us to be gone all week because honestly I am very embrassed by her face right now. It looks like I pushed her down the stairs! Poor kid I guess I will put the side back on her crib hopefully this all heals in the next week so I am not getting grief from my family. The worst thing about it is the big girls FINALLY finished cleaning their room so we were all going to go swimming today but I am thinking the chlorine will not feel to good on poor Chubs face. Oh well just another thing to add to my list on my bad mommy award!

MIA... but alive

Everything is good I have really cut down on working out between contractions and the heat it was time. I am getting so lazy again. I cleaned and cleaned today (I even went to Supermom's so I could clean more!) which always makes me feel better so I do not feel like such a slacker. The girls are getting antsy and driving us insane but that isn't new. With our trip to Mi in a week and then Flyboy's deployment which of coarse keeps getting moved up closer only by days, I am hoping it doesn't end up being the same day as my shower that would suck, you can't expect too much from the kids. I just don't want him to go at all, at least the second half of the year seems to go a little faster. My brother will be here so I will at least have someone to ditch kiddoes on so I can go out every now and then! My brother is so excited about coming down he has his truck fixed and is ready to work, there is no work for him in Michigan so hopefully Di's hubby can hook him up, he is a great guy and really smart. He just finally is putting his life on track after almost 20 years of going no where with it, better late than never. I am really proud of him he has worked hard to get where he is now and he is so happy he can come and help me. I will be sad if he decides to go back to Michigan at xmas, but honestly there isn't any room for him to stay here and I am not sure he would ever want to live by himself. I know I wouldn't, may sound crazy but it is part of being a big family you get used to chaos and people around isolation can drive you nuts!
I am off to make dinner, Flyboy has had the craziest schedule this week and I don't think he has gotten more than 5 hours sleep any night this week so I am going to make him some lasagna. His flight was delayed so God knows if he will be home before 8pm (he went to work at 5am!) but I know he will appreciate it whenever he finally gets to eat it!

26 weeks and it seems all is well!!

So it has been a long hormonal week. Last Thursday was awful I ended up having a hystarical breakdown in the car over a parking ticket. I got it because the library implented a new computer system and it took them 25 min for me to pay my fines (while chasing a tired Chubs off the stairs and AJ whining that she wanted to pick out a book) and you only can get 30 min on the meter so I walked out just in time to see the parking police going back to their car! GRRR... it is only $15 but the damn library should pay it. They have a free lot in the back but I was tired and had AJ and Chubs and there was a spot in front of the front door so I jumped on it. Oh well. Poor AJ had hands me change every time she sees some, and tells me it is for the car. Poor kid I tramatized her! I just felt really stupid I hate getting upset like that.
Then Friday was egg hunt day the girls had a blast at JPP's party and then we went down to the base for their egg hunt. It was nice but I was exhausted when we got home and surprise Flyboys dad was 2 hours away at 9pm and I never finished the house. So Flyboy and I power cleaned the kitchen and the floors (the only 2 things I hadn't done!) So Grandpa was here for the weekend which meant I was ditched on Sat while Flyboy went and hung out with his dad which was fine the girls and I hung out and did some yard work.
Sunday Monkey and I went to the thrift store it was half off day we got a ton of summer clothes for her and AJ. So then the afternoon was spent washing laundry and going through drawers. Even after all the shopping Monkey only has 3 pairs of shorts and none of them in decent enough condition to really wear to school, so I need to pick her up a couple pair, it never ends. AJ is good she has a bunch of play dresses and about 6 pairs of shorts so she will make it through the summer. Chubs needs a couple more dresses since I don't even bother with shorts with her thighs and a cloth diapered butt she would wear 4 or 5s anyway!
Monday I took Grandpa down to St Augustine we went to the fort the girls had fun. AJ was in a whiny mood and Chubs was in a I don't wanna listen to you and I am the best escape artist you ever met mood! Either way Monkey and Grandpa kinda left me with the brats, oh um, little girls and they went and looked and enjoyed the fort! We stopped at the outlets to get get Chubs new shoes and go to the disney outlet. My girls are shoppers and grandpa confessed he was happy he only had boys! We got home about the same time Flyboy got home from work and just vegged. It was a really nice to get a visit with Flyboys dad the girls really love him.
Tuesday grandpa left and the girls were sad I started to feel really crappy so I laid on the couch only to have contractions start. I tried emptying my bladder and drinking tons of water. I spent the whole day on the couch and got nothing done. Once Monkey got home from school she at least entertained her sisters and let me continue doing nothing. By the time Flyboy got home he was exhausted but took one look at me and said I should go in. I knew it wasn't labor and I told him I would see the doc in the morning whether or not I was feeling better. I ended up being up most of the night feeling crappy. So then everyone was telling me to go in. I did for them to check my cervex and take some swabs of it, take my blood and cath me for a clean catch urine sample. All of that for the only result to be you have red blood cells in your urine but it could be nothing or possibly kidney stones. Great, this pregnancy has just been peachy for me. I cannot wait to be neutered! Don't get me wrong I love my kids I just never want to be here again!
Then yesterday Flyboys middle bro (Ex-Army man) called to tell us his gf is preggo. She had a miscarriage last summer so they waited until her first ultrasound so she is about 10 weeks, her due date was my due date with Chubs :o). They have known each other a little over a year but neither of them are really ready for the changes that a baby will bring, I think she is still getting over the miscarriage. Ex-Army man is estatic and he will be a great dad I just had such a crappy day yesterday that I couldn't be happy for anyone being preggo! Does that make me a bad person. Oh well it is just sad yet another one of my kiddos will have a cousin close in age that they will never see expecially since they live in Texas. The story of my life...

The countdown is on...

4 more weeks until AJ is done with preschool and I can have a life again!! I am so sick of not being able to do anything because I am on this stupid time schedule. Next year will be nice to get the girls to school at 8 then I am free until 2:30 so I can actually not have to worry about if it is worth driving somewhere to only be there for an hour!! It just sucks cause she graduates then the next day we go to Michigan for my sister's wedding then we get home and the rush will be on to get Flyboy ready for his deployment then I will be home with all the kids out of school and really, really pregnant!! I am going to have to keep as busy as my body allows. We plan on getting a pool so I will at least have something so have the girls play in and my huge whale butt can cool off in!! I hate summer babies and this is my third one. I am so done ever being pregnant again!!
Chubs had her 15/18 month checkup (she is 17 months today) yesterday and she is doing great. The doc isn't worried about her weight since she is off the chart for all three (height, weight and head circumference). She is now 29 lbs and 34 in. She said if her weight doesn't taper off by 3 then we will do something to make sure it isn't anything but right now she looks great. Flyboy and I just keep wondering if we are going to have another chubby baby! Monkey and AJ were never that chubby as babies, tall yes but not that round!!
Then today Monkey had a dentist appointment it looks like she has an absessed tooth so she is on antibiotics they are hoping they don't have to do a root canal. So she goes back in a month and I made Chubs her first appointment for the same day. I am slacking AJ was 12 months, oh well she will be 18 months. It is not like they do anything at the appointments before 2.5 anyways.
Well I am off to enjoy some kidfree time with Flyboy...

Just have to say...

I have the best husband in the world! Seriously on Wednesday Supermom and I met at the park with the kiddoes and when Flyboy called to say he was home from work I asked if he would have dinner ready for everyone when we got back. So he did have a feast prepared for Supermom, the troops and me! He even helped with washing hands of the 7 kids and getting them to eat with us. Then after she left he found the energy to read to his girls and tuck them in bed so I could unwind without worrying about anything. Then yesterday he had a 5am preflight and flew for 6 hours (it was only supposed to be a 4 hour flight) and came home tired. Still he saw me trying to finish up some chores and grabbed a mop and washed the floors, the floors were nasty Chubs had a figure out how to open any cup mom tries to give me day. I couldn't believe it. He is so amazing some times. I know I am lucky that he loves to cook so he does most of the cooking but rarely do I expect or ask him to help with anything else and he just does. I am dreading being alone after the baby comes I know how much he does but lately it has been jumping out at me about what I will be missing! I know he is trying to make me feel better I have had a rough week, but he is like this 95% of the time and it is just amazing to me how lucky I am.

Thanks Blue...

For the idea... So I am going to apoligize for my pregnancy induced psycosis!! I swear I am hating the way I am. So anyone who happens to hear me go off on my kids or get a dirty look from me I am sorry now! Today I had a decent reason though, but I still got it from Flyboy that I didn't need to be taking it out on him and the girls!!
So I had my 23 week 4 day appointment today and I went to see the midwife that I don't like, but she always stays in the room when I am making my follow up so I couldn't request someone else. Heaven forbid she be the one to deliever me, that'd be my luck. Anyhow I actually had questions, I want to have the Essure procedure done (it is a form of perminate bc). I know I am done I was done at 3 and not that this baby will not be loved I just know I am good and we don't want any more. Well the procedure is pretty new but my friend in San Diego is having it done at that Naval hospital there. Amazingly the midwife had just heard about it and said that one of the docs in the clinic is preforming it! Awesome so she recomend I go see him, he is really hard to get an appointment with and I wanted to see him from the beginning so I am hoping to just stay with this new doc now that I got my in with him. So the appointment started good and it just went down hill. I asked about my allergies and she said she would put in a script for me (which she didn't, grrr...). Then she asked if I had been doing anything different in the last 5 weeks and I said no and she said well you gained 9 lbs. Okay but that brings my total weight gain to 13 lbs including gaining back the 6 lbs I lost between 7 and 12 weeks, so really 7 lbs. She said oh well just watch it (hello like I am sitting around eating bon bons all day!), then she measured me and I am measuring 28 cm. So I looked at her and asked if I get another ultrasound to make sure that the baby isn't growing too much or just to see if I have a lot of fluid in there, which was the case with AJ I always measured huge with her. She said no everything looked fine in my 20 week ultrasound and the baby only measured 2 days bigger than my due date so she wasn't concerned. I then said I opted out of the triple screen (I had a false positive with Monkey and never wanted that stress again) and I only got a level I screen. She said well there isn'that much of a diff between a I and II. I said yes about 20-25 min and a tech that looks for more of the downs markers along with other defects. She just kinda looked at me and said there was no need for another scan. I got a level II with both AJ and Chubs since I opted out of the triple screen and that was Navy issued! (Then afterwards I *heard* of someone getting a 3D ultrasound through the Navy, oh well). We finished the appointment listening to the baby who as soon as she started trying to count the heartbeat proceded to kick the doppler off of him and hide so she couldn't find it again. So she said oh the baby moving a lot and I said not as much as my first but yes and he just is so low and my tailbone and lower back hurt along with having pelvic pressure. She said you have a long way to go to already be complaining about that. I think my eyes popped out of my head at this point. I don't bitch about my pain I know my back pain is primarely from carrying around a 30 lbs Chubs, but that doesn't explain the tailbone pain or pressure and now along with rapid weight gain and measuring big I was just surprised she didn't want to do any testing or anything. Oh well I guess in 5 weeks when I see this new doc I will finally get some answers. Right now I am not going to worry about it too much the baby has a strong heartbeat and does move around in there, I don't feel ill. Nothing is telling me to be too concerned I just didn't like the treatment I recieved. Seeing as I am already a hormonal time bomb my poor family got my brunt of it. Oh well I got them all to clean up the messes they had made and we got the house in order. Which is good since Flyboy invited a co-worker to dinner tomorrow. So now all I have to worry about tomorrow is the normal sweep and vaccumm and making enchillatas which is always nice.

Wow time flies...

when your house is trashed and you can't stay awake past 8:45pm!! So I spent the week getting the house back together it is finally done so I can go back to my normal routine. I needed to do the deep cleaning since we just finally turned on the air. Mine and the girls allergies are horrible and we should have turned the air on sooner, but I so prefer fresh air. It just meant cleaning that 2" layer of pollen from everything in the house!
Monkey had a great counseling appointment this week I love that she has someone who understands her. She was in a funky mood and it is from some of the books that I have taken away from her and she has grabbed them and read them anyway, that whole it must be super cool if mom doesn't want me to read it thing! Hopefully that is stopped since Ira told her that it was the cause of her bad dreams which is leading to poor sleep, which means bad days. By Friday she seemed to be a different kid we will see how long this lasts!
Apple Juice cannot wait for her preschool graduation in a month and right after that we head up to Michigan so she can be the flower girl in my sisters wedding. She thought my trip up to Michigan was to go to the wedding so when I got back and we were talking about it she looked at me and said their getting married again for me?! That kid cracks me up!
Chubs is driving me crazy she is becoming such a climber which I can deal with, but she is getting mean. She is going through a hit everyone phase. I bsat for Supermom's boys and seriously they spent the morning on me to stay away from Chubs. Eventually she found other stuff to do but she has been hitting her sisters and Flyboy and I. She even said NO and hit some strange lady who was just walking by, fortuately the lady didn't notice but I am so done with it. Then when you scold her about it she gives you an evil look. I just don't know how to get through to her that it is not okay. I guess it is only because the older two are being good I can't get a break and have 3 outa 3, oh man I am going to die with 4!!
Off to figure out what to do with my Sunday, I need to go shopping but I have no desire to go it is sad really how little desire I have to do anything but lay on the couch!! Yesterday we went to the zoo, it was too hot and the kids were all cranky by the time we left but it was nice to go out. Maybe I will brave the beach today, Apple Juice keeps begging me to go and the dogs would love to go swim! We will see I am sure Flyboy wants to do stuff around the house and I don't want to go by myself.