It's 3 am and here I am

Man oh man I am so sick of being up for no reason. Okay tonight I have a reason Chubs woke up at 2am and I tried to bring her in bed and cuddle, she is my first baby who would rather sleep by herself. She tossed and turned until I finally got up rocked her and put her back in her crib which she was fine with, but now mommy doesn't have anyone to rock her to sleep. :( I am sure part of being up is the fact that I have an ultrasound in about 5 hours. Part of me doesn't want to go I just don't want to see the disappointment on Flyboys face when they tell me it is a girl. I know there is a slim to no chance that it is a boy but I honestly feel like it is a girl. Plus the baby has been facing the back so I don't even think that we will get a peek anyway. I hate being this pessimistic but I guess that is the wonderful pregnancy hormones raging thru my body!

Also Supermom is trying to get orders to Texas and it looks like they have a pretty good chance since her hubbys squadron is downsizing, but she would leave in July right before the baby. I feel like everyone is deserting me. It definitely doesn't help the mild depression I have been battling off and on through this pregnancy. I just don't have anyone else I am that close to here. Supermom is more like a sister than a friend she has seen my house messy and me lose it with my kids. I was hoping if her hubby is home when I am in labor she could be there for me so I am not alone in the delivery room. It is horrible that I hope the orders don't go through. Oh well there isn't anything to do but wait and see.

I hope my day only gets better. At least I will make one daughter happy today, Monkey wants a boy and Apple Juice wants a girl so someone will be happy today!