I am home...

and here is my novel.
I fit a 2 week vacation into 5 days I think it will take me a month to recover!! I had a wonderful time. The night we got there we had a bday party for my oldest brother and we had 5 of the 8 kids in one house, the other 2 who live in Michigan are crazy so they were not missed too much and the other brother lives in New Hampshire and told us that he wants nothing to do with us. So all the kids that mattered were there!! It was really nice and my brother was so happy to have all of us there for him. He is going through a divorse and a tough time and we all love him, but I know it is hard to feel that way when you are so down. The next morning I dropped off my brother who is going to live with me in May (YEAH!!) at my grandma's house that my other brother bought and is fixing up to sell (I am sure I lost some of you there!) then headed down to Kare-bear's to meet the baby Wyatt. He is so cute he had a doc appointment and Karen couldn't believe that he already weighs 9lbs8oz at 5 weeks he was 6lbs 10oz at 1 week. He is doing great and is more alert and actually would look for Chubs when he heard her voice. It was nice being there her house is always my vacation from my vacation it is quiet and just a little sanctuary. I stayed the night which was fun seeing as Wyatt got up at 12:30 then Chubs at 2:30 then Wyatt at 4 then we were all up for the day at 6:30, but there was snow on the ground. So I got Chubs dressed and got a couple pics of her standing in the 1" of snow!! She was okay with it until she touched it.
After slowly getting ready I headed up to my sisters shower it was about an hour and half drive in the snow through downtown Detroit, but I loved it. The shower wasn't so bad but my crazy older sister had to make a scene and I felt horrible for my little sis but she shook it off, go sis. After the shower we met up with my brother who bought my grandma's house (not the same one I dropped off at grandmas) and his wife and my nephew for some Greek food then they were heading downtown with my sisters fiancee to go to motorcross. After diner I took Chubs back to my mom's and got her in bed so we could go bowling. My mom actually asked if I could go bowling! Apparently she did nothing while she was pregnant with the 8 of us!! My sis and I had a good laugh about the way my mom was treating me in general. I went bowling with my sister-in-law (who is divorsing my oldest brother, but we all like her anyway the marriage was just over) my two nieces, my little sis and Kevin (the brother who is coming to live with me and fixing up grandma's house). It was fun even though my niece who is 12 threw a fit the whole time but oh well she is just at that teenage years of the world is out to get her and no one likes her or understands her. ICK I am DREADING these years.
Sunday I went to church and my dad was serving so Chubs kept trying to get out of my arms to go find grandpa. So it was a LONG hour for me, I haven't been to church in FOREVER and my mom seemed offended that I didn't get communion, oh well. Right after church I surprised Flyboys mom with a visit she had no idea I was in town. It was a good visit which surprised me and I was an hour late leaving so I felt horrible that my next visit was shortened. I went to meet up with some friends from high school that I haven't really talked to in about 6 years. One of the friends has a son Chubs age and of course Chubs taught him the word "mine". It was so nice hanging out with them I could have been there all day, but no I had to drive an hour to get my little sis's car back to her. So off I went I had dinner and got to say goodbye and then my parents and I headed home. Monday we went to a really cool mall called Great Lakes Crossing and let Chubs play and went to the Rainforrest Cafe before my parents dropped me off at the airport. Chubs did okay on the flights but was definately over stimulated and done, but her face lit up so much when she saw her sisters and daddy.
Now I am off to attempt to clean up after Flyboy at least he has a late flight so he will be outa my hair I hate cleaning around him. Poor Apple Juice comes up to me yesterday saying I have no pjs daddy didn't do any laundry. Flyboy looked at me and said I checked their underware drawers and they looked good!!
Oh man I got about 5 loads at least I did all of mine and Chubs before coming home! He did paint and finish the floor and take Monkey dress shopping (which was a 4 hour trip to Regency) he said all the ladies thought it was so cute that he took his daughters shopping. He just bought her a blue and black dress that I don't think will look right for a spring wedding, but try and convince Monkey of that!! It is adorable and looks like a homecoming dress and she looks about 13 in it, but it just isn't springy enough, so I get to continue the dress shopping saga once I can walk through the house again...

GIRLS

OH MY GOODNESS I am so ready to go to Michigan NOW. My big girls have been fighting whining and making each other cry any way they can. It is pretty bad when Chubs is telling them to STOP IT!! I am so over GIRLS! I hope to God this baby has a penis I am going to go insane if I have to deal with 4 drama mamas!
Other than that it was a good weekend we finally finished laying our flooring it looks SO nice. We have a fun bbq/game night which I paid for yesterday with the girls being over tired all day. Then I finally got the girls over to the Avenues to go to Build a bear and make Wyatt a gator (we decided on that since we are in Florida), but we made him a surfer gator. AJ named him Harry, not sure why but that is his name. I cannot wait till Friday and I get to see Wyatt and Karen it has been too long. I hate that I only get up to Michigan once or twice a year. My sis is coming out of her skin to see me and I am pretty excited to hang out with her. I am dreading the shower, but I can survive. It would be better if I could at least get tipsy always easier to deal with family that way!! I also have nothing to wear since it is going to be like 50ish and my sis keeps telling me how warm that is. Hello it is 80ish today!! I am going to freeze maybe it will be a freakishly warm weekend, one can wish!
I am off to mow the yard before the rain tomorrow, Monkey is painting and AJ is supposed to be helping me with mowing and watching Chubs. Hopefully I can keep 'em seperated for another 2 days!

Five Finger waves everyone...

So the idiots on base said I ran 2 stop signs (I MAY have did a rolling stop) but I know I didn't run them oh and I was going 15 when they pulled me over. It was back in January I was on my way to my doc apt to find out if I passed my gluclose and if my protein levels were good since they are watching me close for diabetes and Pre-eclampsia. Well either way the idiot shore patrol gave me a ticket so I had to go to the mandatory driver improvement coarse. Wow 4 hours of my life I really could have done something better with! They pushed more on road rage then anything else. I am a very passive driver, I guess it is because I took drivers training 8 months pregnant. I do have some California driving skills in me when I need to get somewhere but for the most part I leave way early or just take the attitude of people can deal with me being late!! Either way the guy just kept saying when you get mad just smile and wave. After like the 20th time he said that I wanted to smile wave and leave! Oh well fortunately Supermom was able to watch AJ and Chubs although i felt bad because she was trying to pack and clean her house before their trip to Texas tomorrow. By the time I got there it was nap time for everyone so I just grabbed the girls and left.
I was out too late last night but I love going to Cuba's for coffee, not that I drink it but I did eat almost an entire pint of strawberries and a bite of brownie and a donut oh and some of Cuba's dinner!! She is just making sure I finally get some weight on I am at a grand total of 6 lbs of weight gain and I am at 21 weeks!! I will put on 40 I am sure I feel huge I am going to get as big as I was with Monkey. I really wish I could get my motivation up to workout, but I just find it so hard and with Chubs being 29 lbs my back is killing me from carrying her so I know I need to get back into Yoga and I just can't do it. I did it with Chubs I do not see why this is such a problem this time. I guess not having the classes at the Y like I did with Chubs is the hardest thing. Plus Flyboy is here and I have such a crazy schedule with school pickup times that I feel run ragged already.
I better try and get a full nights sleep not that that happens much with the baby sitting so low and so active I am up to pee or just trying to get comfy most of the night. It is going to be a long 18ish weeks until this pregnancy is over, then I will be up but for some reason getting up to put someone on my boob isn't a big deal I hate getting out of bed to pee and then not being able to get comfy again!!

Finally...

I got my D@#N W-2 today thank you stupid A#$ post office. I hate the service for the base oh well it is done and the taxes are DONE!! Woohoo. One more thing to mark as done on my long list of crap I have wanted to do and couldn't for some reason or another.
Also Flyboy is flying tonight and won't be home until 4-5am so for some reason this gave me the energy to get all the girls tucked in and then clean my couch, kitchen and wash all the floors and now I just finished the taxes I really didn't want to do that because dial up sucks butt. fortunately I had everything done except for my one W-2 so it wasn't so bad!! I cannot wait to go back to some sort of high speed but I will save a couple bucks for the next few months. I promised Monkey in June we will have some sort of internet that doesn't suck butt!!
I think I have a mild cold which sucks, it could be allergies since my eyes are itching, but I got a sore throat with it. No fever or anything so I will let it run it's coarse. I just need to be all better by next Thursday before I fly. Chubs is finally doing better and is willing to take her meds so she should be fine now. AJ just keeps telling us her ear hurts and she needs some bubble gum meds too!! What a ham. But in all the medicine passing out I forgot Monkey's oh well she did okay. For some reason in Jan she was off 'em and did great but now you miss one day and she is crazy. And it is scary like she climbed the tree with some shears in the rain and when I asked her to get down she didn't have any understanding of why that was dangerous.
She scares me some times. I am really scared with the new baby and Erik being gone, I don't think she would purposely hurt her siblings but she would pick up Chubs from the floor, when she was a newborn, while I was in the potty or something and put her on the edge of the couch and walk away and just forget she had done it. I am so scared with having to chase Chubs that Mikaela will "help" and something bad is going to happen. I really wish I didn't feel that way. Ira our counselor said it is really common amoungst parents and it is normal. It still doesn't make me feel that great. :( I just feel isolated because I almost hate taking her out if I know her meds are going to wear off, but then I feel like a horrible mom that I have her medicated at all. Her grades dropped into the bucket and she was a disruption to the class and was losing friends I had to put her back on at least she is off of any mood stabilizers but I hate giving her ADHD meds. I just don't know what to do anymore. I think I am more having issues because my sis just checked herself out of rehab after almost killing herself by mixing drugs and she was only there 6 days. I know by everything I am doing with Monkey I am helping keep her off that path, but I am just worried and will always be. Have been since the day I found out I was pregnant with each of my kiddoes. Guess that is just being a mom. I hope someday she will be med free and I know she will but it was the hardest decision I made about her life and I just hope it was the right one.

And the verdit is...

A double ear infection and sinus infection. Wouldn't guess it with how she is running around and playing!! Even the doc said she was doing great considering her temp was 102.5 (woohoo one of my kids finally kept the fever for the apt! Okay I am sure that sounds crazy but I hate going in there and them going well her temp is only 99 and me looking like a liar when I say it was 103! Oh and little things excite me!). She now has motrin and some bubble gum medicine in her so heres to hoping tomorrow is a better night and day!!

Disneyworld

So ya gotta love the Navy I found out at 5pm on Friday that Flyboy has to work on Saturday. We knew there was a chance so I had told him I am taking the girls, I actually had a full tank of gas and everything ready. Oh yeah and I am a retard who told my girls in advance that we were going!! So Supermom and I had been talking if Flyboy couldn't go she could keep Chubs and I would take her oldest! Sweet no stroller, diaper or whining over tired baby! Awesome. So we left the base around 7:45 and made it there by 10 which is when I was meeting Stu who works at Disney and got me 1 day park hoppers for my girls and me, the borrowed daughter has an annual pass (so I got parking for free too!). We had to meet him at the Animal Kingdom since he works at the lodge, which was cool because I have never been there. Stu worked with my friend Trish who lives in San Diego and we met at Trish's daughter's 2nd bday party (she is the same age as Apple Juice), so it was funny 2.5 years ago I would have never thought we would see each other at Disney, but hey when you know connections you use 'em!! It was crowded but definitely for a Saturday in March it wasn't bad. The worst thing about the day was I couldn't do the rides (I did the Safari ride only because I have driven worse dirt roads then the ride takes you on!) but since I couldn't go the rides borrowed daughter and Apple Juice couldn't either because even though they were tall enough they were not 7. So I got in line for the water ride and asked the group ahead of me to count my girls and I would wait right at the exit. Fortunately they were cool with this. The girls had so much fun. Then we did more of the zoo type things of looking at animals and went to Bugs life. Then Monkey and borrowed daughter went on Everest, Apple Juice was okay with skipping the ride and I guess no one realized borrowed wasn't with an adult. Then we headed to the car for some A/C and lunch then we headed over to Magic Kingdom so we could see some princesses. It was a little more crowded than Animal Kingdom but we walked onto a few rides in Fantasyland and the girls waited about 20 min for the tea ride and Dumbo. We waited almost an hour to see the princesses, oh well those are the things the daddys hate to do and to see borrowed and Apple Juice's faces light up when they saw them it was completely worth it. But I was done and still had the drive home in front of me so I started corralling the girls towards the front and we finally got in the car and some McD's and were heading home about 8:30pm a little later than I wanted to, but we made it home about 11 after dropping borrowed off.
Flyboy had Chubs in bed around 8pm after she had cried for an hour after he took her from Supermom, I swear sometimes she is more attached to her! Well Chubs woke up at 2am with a temp of 104 and my hips hurt so bad I couldn't make it down the stairs so I was a horrible mom and let it burn she slowly cooled down after I stripped her and by 6am when I could get Flyboy to finally get up she was down to 101 so we decided to not give her anything and let the fever run its coarse. She has been weird all day being fine and then acts sick for a little bit finally around 6pm she spiked again so I gave her some Motrin for the first time and now she is running around fine. She is peeing and pooing fine and really isn't eating much so I am guessing she just has a virus, but she has an appointment tomorrow, with someone I like better than Pringle (the biggest idiot in the world) but not much. I figure if he doesn't do anything I will sit in the office until I can see one of the people there who actually knows something! I need to make her an appointment for next Tues/ Wed to get a quick ear check before she has her first plane ride next Thurs!! Better news from Chubs she has been boobie free for 5 days!! I am pretty excited and even with being sick she hasn't asked for it!! Flyboy thought I was last night and asked me what I was doing! :) Woohoo I should only have one nursling at a time!

It's a...

BOY... oh I still cannot believe it. The tech looked at us and said so what is the girls name? and I said oh so it is a girl? and she said no you don't get to use that because there is a penis!! He was a stinker though and wouldn't give us a good pic. She tried to get him to roll over so it would fall out a little more, but she said she was 98% sure it was a boy and he just had a little penis (most likely from his weird upside down position he wouldn't move from!) So Flyboy and I are in shock I really really didn't expect that and now I have a ton of girl clothes that I guess I will never get to use again. :(

It's 3 am and here I am

Man oh man I am so sick of being up for no reason. Okay tonight I have a reason Chubs woke up at 2am and I tried to bring her in bed and cuddle, she is my first baby who would rather sleep by herself. She tossed and turned until I finally got up rocked her and put her back in her crib which she was fine with, but now mommy doesn't have anyone to rock her to sleep. :( I am sure part of being up is the fact that I have an ultrasound in about 5 hours. Part of me doesn't want to go I just don't want to see the disappointment on Flyboys face when they tell me it is a girl. I know there is a slim to no chance that it is a boy but I honestly feel like it is a girl. Plus the baby has been facing the back so I don't even think that we will get a peek anyway. I hate being this pessimistic but I guess that is the wonderful pregnancy hormones raging thru my body!

Also Supermom is trying to get orders to Texas and it looks like they have a pretty good chance since her hubbys squadron is downsizing, but she would leave in July right before the baby. I feel like everyone is deserting me. It definitely doesn't help the mild depression I have been battling off and on through this pregnancy. I just don't have anyone else I am that close to here. Supermom is more like a sister than a friend she has seen my house messy and me lose it with my kids. I was hoping if her hubby is home when I am in labor she could be there for me so I am not alone in the delivery room. It is horrible that I hope the orders don't go through. Oh well there isn't anything to do but wait and see.

I hope my day only gets better. At least I will make one daughter happy today, Monkey wants a boy and Apple Juice wants a girl so someone will be happy today!

Dreams

So I had a normal night fell asleep early got up around 1am to pee and couldn't get back to sleep. I had a long day yesterday Flyboy had 2 days in a row (Friday and surprise Saturday) where he had 8 hour flights which means he goes to work at 3:30am and if they land on time he will be home around 5pm. So he is a bear when he gets home and I was dreading his return yesterday! The girls were also being sisters about 80% of the time my girls are good and will either play together or separately and be okay, but not yesterday no it was a I am going to make the other one scream ANY WAY I can. Oh I wanted to kill 'em. Fortunately they behaved at the birthday party and we had stopped at the ocean and I let them get there feet wet (Chubs loved the sea foam, but wasn't a big fan of the water!) so I had this false sense that I could run into AC Moore and they would be okay (I wasn't even looking for good!). So I go in and they are begging candy off the candy lady (who was giving away samples) well I let them have some figuring they will be good now I gave 'em treats. No it just got worse, finally I almost lost it so I just grabbed them got out of the store. I had to stop myself from crying I felt like a horrible mom. I didn't hit or scream as much as I wanted to but it just drives me nuts when they do this I just get to scared about Flyboys deployment I am going to have to go to the commissary and stuff and I just cannot handle when they behave like that. Fortunately it is not every time and they are usually good as far as kids go!
So we finally get home and I am emotionally drained and Flyboy is physically drained but the kids did great and got ready for bed. Flyboy with Chubs help read the horse and his boy and then everyone was off to be by 8 on a Saturday night!! Flyboy and I stayed up and watched CSI then were in bed ourselves at 9:30! So getting up at 1 I was just going over the day in my head and it took over an hour to get back to sleep. Finally when I did I had a dream about my ultrasound and they told me the baby is a girl. Now I have had many dreams that the baby is a girl, but this time I actually felt disappointed. That was the first time that had happened. Honestly I am more scared about something being wrong with the baby then it being another girl. I have all the clothes and I have had 3 girls so I feel more prepared for the baby to be a girl but I guess somewhere deep down I would be a little sad if the baby is a girl. I am definitely done I was done after Chubs, I was surprised she was a girl I had a strong feeling she was a girl, but something in me thought she may be a boy. I know Flyboy was a little bummed she is a girl. I guess I just don't understand why it would matter anyway. I am over pink/purple and sparkly everything but one boy in a house of women is not going to change that. I guess after Wednesday I will be able to wrap my head around what i need to get ready for. Honestly Flyboy not being here for the birth is more disappointing than anything they could tell me!

Mommy blues

So I had a rough weekend I am sleeping alright, but just plan bitchy I wish there was someway to say that nicer but no I have been down right mean lately. I have been avoiding friends and my family. Poor Flyboy I am sure he is ready to leave me in the middle of the St Johns on a boat with no oars, but hey I told him that I was going to get preggo and he needed to let me get fixed if he wasn't going to!! Oh well 4 kids, most likely 4 girls oh lord help me!! I will survive my parents make it thru 8. The mood finally snapped yesterday so now I just feel horrible for the person I was for 4 days, but I know there is nothing I can do to change that. So I just spent time with my kids yesterday took them to the park and had them help me with dinner and we even cleaned the girls rooms all of this with no fighting and me not getting frustrated it was a wonderful feeling when I crawled into bed! Flyboy even put the back room together so I actually was able to put everything away!!
Then today has been great for me, but my poor kids. Chubs took a couple of good falls at the park this morning because I woke her from her nap to go play with a bunch of babies (seriously I got the mean look about a million times everytime I smiled at one of the babies!!) Then we went and got Apple Juice from school, she ran in the door to go check on her catapiller she caught yesterday and it was dead. So she was a little bummed and went upstairs to play polly now that you can see the floor in there!! Well a bird flew in the house so I asked her to come help me chase it out of the house. I was finishing up lunch for Chubs and I and the bird flew into the half bath and the 2 dogs and cat cornered it and Phantom caught it and killed it. So I look out the back window to see Apple Juice holding a dead bird and looking so lost. So I go ouside and help her bury it. Then she tells me how some boy put Jesus on two sticks in a cross and Jesus died but didn't stay that way (she must have learned this in chapel at pre-school!). So I have to tell her that the bird is in heaven and he will stay there with all of his birdie friends. Then she looks at me and says well I just feel sorry for the bird. I tell her it is okay but we cannot be mad at Phantom because he didn't know what he was doing.
So tonight I am going to take her for ice cream! What a horrible day for a 4 year old! Hopefully Monkey is having a good day at school, but seeing as she had trouble getting to sleep and waking up I am not thinking that it is very likely.